So I've tried the pills again. They're just not going to work. Lexapro makes me angry and fat. Zoloft keeps me from sleeping and instead of taking me off it, he wants me to take something for sleep that makes me shake all the time. Nothing seems to work. I just can't stop worrying. I'm sure it's this way for a lot of you, but I can't seem to watch television anymore. I see illness everywhere, and not just common, every day stuff, but the kind of things that I fear the most. I stopped watching medical shows all together a little while ago, but I started again. I am so
terrified of neuromuscular disorders that I am always checking my strength and reflexes. I measure my muscles and lift weights. I'm sure I'm injuring myself by lifting too much, but I'm trying so hard to convince myself that I'm not dying. I'm at work right now and it's so hard to get work done sometimes. I can't concentrate. If I have a muscle pain or feel a little tired, I nearly have a panic attack. What on earth can I do? If medication isn't going to help me and counseling only helps for a while, how am I going to live like this?